I continue to be amazed at how insecure and vain I can be.  When I unwittingly step outside of my center in God, I find myself wanting buckets full of human affirmation and adoration.  I find myself seeking what mirrors only my positive qualities – solo revelations of beauty and perfection while simultaneously growing jealous of those who appear perfect.  During these times, I waste precious growth opportunities (not to mention indulge in serious delusion  : ).  This does not mean we should never be validated – it simply means that sometimes I ONLY want to be validated.  It also means I have lost touch with the only One Who can truly identify me.  

     On the day I die, a human may need to identify my body, but it will be God Who will identify my soul.  Will our Lord recognize me as I was created to be?  What will He find as His Loving Arms embrace my soul?  For Him there will be no surprises, but for me – if I have denied Him opportunities to heal me while remaining in self deception, will I be surprised?  In that moment, I will not get to choose my “mirrors.”  Though I have no doubt that God will Love me through every moment of Truth – even after I pass on – why wait!?  If “Thy Kingdom come – Thy Will be done - on Earth as it is in Heaven,” then the time is now. 

     Lord, I pray that I, and all who read this, find Your Holy Spirit moving within us to surrender to inner transformation.  For most of us, this is a painful and raw experience.  We have spent years running and hiding from the truth within us - within our histories.  No matter how painful, remind us this is temporary.  Give us the brave hearts of great warriors who stand empty handed having used up all human means.  Give us safe friends and healthy surroundings.  Grace us daily with the strength to choose Your Love and Pathway trusting that Your plan for us is better than any designs we create on our own.  We trust in Your great love for us.  We trust that we are truly Your Beloved.